It's Official

I've found my story. I have honestly never enjoyed writing more.

Oh, one more thing

I love you too

Co-Co would dream of dancing at midnight beneath the stars, cause when it comes to dancing Co-Co's a star!

I'm back, fyi. Graduated, visited extensively with family, said goodbye to friends, and jumped into the future. I wish I knew if I was going to be here for a while longer or not, cause being so unstable is quite prohibitive of applying for jobs. I feel like I'd have a boost of confidence if I knew what the rest of this year looked like. Hell, I'd rest easier if I knew what the rest of the week had in mind... hold up, no I wouldn't. I don't want to know the future.

One thing I'd like to know though... Slow Wind by Akon, R. Kelly, and Sean Paul... who told them lyrics like "i feel like a butcher, just wanna chop you up and cut you" or "beautiful skin, the color of mustard" or "ride you like a range rover" were romantic or sexually enticing? From the sounds of it he wants a hot dog. And what exactly is he doing to his Range Rover? It's a car for gawds sake, we don't fuck those.

I miss several people. And they're all sitting right in front of me. Isn't that just the way?

I've written 5 songs in the past week. Recorded / finished 3 of them. I'm always playing an instrument but it's usually somebody else's song. This flow of original music is weird for me. But I did find my place in song writing. I've always tried mainstream stuff, you know, with lyrics and a beat. Turns out I'm much more motivated at writing soundtracks. Let's add another tack to the "reasons why I should study film" wall. In other music news, I learned "Hello" by Beyonce on piano. I go into this little zone where I can't pull myself away. I love it too. I close my eyes and everything disappears. It's kind of like the zone I go into running, only this one's deeper.

My beautiful flower Petunia is blooming. Her flowers keep getting bigger. We welcomed a new bud yesterday. Doing quite well. Actually from this angle, in the shadow, she looks ... like a really pretty flower.

Your warm whispers, letting me drown in a pool of you.

Is it bad to love your best friend with all of your heart? And respect the hell out of her best friend? Are four days a long time?

I'm listening to the Backstreet Boys. When I was little I was best friends with my neighbor. We each claimed a backstreet boy. I wanted Bryan, but he was taken so I got stuck with Howie. Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. Played my part, kept you in the dark... you finish it. My old friend got a scholarship from Fastpitch to go to college. Three weeks ago I would have been jealous. But I'm not. I don't even know her anymore.

Everyone mark their calendars on June 6th, 2009. That was my best day ever. I graduated, all of my friends were there, all of my family was there. They flew across the world, and if they couldn't then they sent a card with the ones who could. I have the sweetest family ever. The best friends... you're never as alone as you think you are.

Hungry Like The Wolf! Doo x 15 !! I'm on the hunt I'm after you

Goodnight.